9 years

July 1 would have been 9 years for us. There are for sure elements that I of course get sad about. She was my best friend. More than anything, I miss that. I loved coming home every day. I'm not sure she loved me coming home everyday lol! I was gone enough however that she could have her alone time she needed from even sweet little me! LOL 

I was telling a friend, that I actually think I did the grieving process pretty healthily. I didn't stay in depression but I also didn't suppress all my grief. Believe me! I cried every day for a year. I didn't even know why I was crying and couldn't believe there were any more tears to flow. 

I just had something happen the other day that she would have been the first person I told and it felt so weird not to continue the story with her on that situation. 

Of course I miss all that and her. Even when I'd get mad she would make me laugh! 

With all that being said, I did so much reading that next year after she took her heaven portal. One of those things is I went into a deep dive about Heaven. There is actually a lot talked about in the Bible and I also watched a lot of NDE videos. The commonalities of stories from around the world are way too coincidental! Of course selfishly I would still want her here but when I think about where she is and just how sweet but also sensitive she was, she is where she is supposed to be. 

She left me with an example to learn from and I am. I have learned so much because of her passing. Again, what the evil one meant for bad, God has turned to good. I am not even close to the same person I was when she was here and God is still in the refining process with me big time! 

The fact that I know I will "see" her again is such a loving comfort from God to me. 
I am just left with gratitude much more than sorrow despite really missing her! 

2 videos 
First most of you have seen as I've posted many times. Gods gift to me with this song and how he orchestrated it to all come about. The second one I have just found. I love the tune and the words. The comfort I find is in knowing where she is and I have let go of a lot. There will always be a spot in my heart for her but my mind is settled for which I'm thankful. God is good. 
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