Talia's 4th year Heavenly Arrival Anniversary

I've been pretty prolific in years past writing about my late wife. Nothing has changed and actually based upon recent experiences, it has only reinforced what I already knew. Talia was the sweetest person I've ever met and I will be forever grateful for the short time God blessed my life with her as my wife. It was an honor to be her husband and I looked forward to coming home to her every day. She loved me unconditionally like God. As I went through pictures and videos, I did a lot of laughing. One of which I have included here. 

One change in the last year is when I go to the cemetery I now pay respects to Dad also. For me, the cemetery is in interesting place. Because, I know the person is no longer there in spirit, I do not talk to them. I talk to God. I want to do like I see in the movies, where you talk to your loved one like they are there. I don't find anything wrong with that and I actually think it may help me, but for me personally, I want to operate out of what I believe is truth and not just try and feel better. So I see these spots as holy ground. Talia was into sci-fi and her favorite show was Stargate where a guy goes into a portal to some point in time each week. I read a book where they said the burial plot was her heaven portal so it fit perfect for me with Talia so I call it Talia's Heaven portal. I go and thank God for now both Talia and my Dad. The brick is at the hospice in Lansing. 

I took some screenshots of what my sisters posted about Talia upon her passing and also something that was in one of Talia's journals:

When I think of Talia in Heaven, knowing how sensitive she was and seeing the world climate like it is, I am so happy she has not had to endure any more of this worlds sinful ways. So grateful. For me, I was told my mind would catch up to the reality of loosing Talia, but my heart probably never will and I have found that to be true. It has been a long season of loss both with loss of other loved ones like my Dad, people I called Moms, friends, etc.. but also loss in other areas too that have been very tough for me to navigate. 

With that being said,  I'm in an interesting season in my life for which I'm learning what it means to  trust God. Talia's passing set me on a course to really know more not only about heaven but the spiritual world. (our battle is not against flesh and blood). 

In John, Jesus lets us know that for those of us that accept Jesus's death and resurrection, we have the same Spirit He had living in us! I have some amazing examples before me that live lives truly led by Holy Spirit. I'm working on trying to live that kind of life with the rest of my days on this planet which in return all equals loving the people God has graciously put in my life, better, not in my strength but through Holy Spirit! 

While that all sounds sweet and nice, it's a painful process coming to the end of myself so I can be filled with Holy Spirit. All of this initiated I think in part to the losses I have faced. 

I'm still learning so much from Talia's example. In addition to being so sweet, she also had childlike faith. There was an innocence about her just like children just like Jesus talked about. Be like the children. Not in an immature way, but a baby is totally dependent on the parents so it should be with us and Abba Father! Talia had that. I had a lot of mind knowledge and didn't apply it very well. She would say aren't you the one that told me this? Well, pray about it! LOL 

I'm rambling but bottom line is I'm so thankful for Talia. I know what I had. I pray God may bless me again, but if not, I'm thankful for the short time He gave me to experience such an amazing wife. I'll leave with a few of her posts about our life together including the last few years with Mia. God sure used Mia! The only cat I know that has made two obituaries. LOL 

Also one of the blessings and really a couple of miracles came with it, was the song God let me do in tribute to Talia which I've included again. I also included another one I did that I dedicated to my Mom when she passed but I like to think of Talia in such peace and joy in Heaven. 

Thank you Lord for the gift that was Talia!