I've thought a lot about what to write as I have reached one year since Talia's transition to Heaven. I remember this day last year similar to today, I was watching the NBA finals. I stayed with Talia everyday in Hospice. After the game was done, I tried to lay down on the couch in her room and was awakened at about 5am on the 10th, by her breathing which was signifying her transition. She fought so courageous and brave and with such humility.
There is so much to reflect on over the last year.
I didn't realize how exhausted I was.
I didn't realize just how stressful my job was.
Everything I knew about Talia has been heightened.
I think I love Talia better now then when she was here.
I understand her better now.
She really was the sweetest person I've ever met.
Part of me transitioned with Talia.
I think about Heaven all the time.
God is truly good.
I'm more compassionate for people especially those that have gone through similar circumstances. There are a lot of us that belong to a club none of us wanted to belong to.
I'm more grateful than I used to be.
I have the most incredible support group ranging from my blood family, Talia's family, co -workers, the jazz community, all the hospice workers, and so many friends from all walks of life.
The world needs Jesus
Priorities have changed
Talia led by example
Grief is no joke
I got to walk where Jesus walked
I believe I'm a stronger person now because of what I've been through
I was afraid I wouldn't remember what life was like before she got cancer but thank God as I reflect through a lot of pictures, I remember all the good times!
I don't like going grocery shopping anymore
It's the simple things that get me
I could go on and on. It was very important for me to take this year off. I have to figure out next steps now but as Talia would tell me don't stress about it, pray about it and God will open the door.
There were about a billion pictures I could have posted but I decided on this one because it was something we were both proud of, we kept each other accountable to read through the Bible in a year. Because of what the Bible says about how God loved us and paid the price (so yes He gets our pain of loss) and if we accept that as Talia did, there is no death. I've tried not to use the word death because only Talia's body died not her spirit, what a comfort to know I will be reunited with her.
I have finished for the most part recording my tribute project to Talia. There are so many special moments on here and so many contributions of love. One very special piece will close this project entitled "Till I See You" by Peter Jonatan. It's a very emotional piece for me because it depicts so well what I envision my reuniting with Talia to be like in addition to being with Jesus also! I'm excited for you all to hear it, and of course will let you know when it's ready to be released.
In closing, I could have written so much more but I just wanted to say thank you to all of you for all the love and support through this season. May God bless you all and know how much you are all loved!
Max Colley III
Spirit Filled Jazz Musician